Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Broken...but standing STRONG!

So this year has definitely been a year of growing and learning how to feel so many different things. It's crazy how the world can offer us so many different things..some good some bad. I am so lucky to be able to see the morning coming after night. It is to easy to sink into sadness, and burry your mind within  dark shadows formed by problems that loom in the corners of our lit walls. I have been informed that I need some pretty serious surgery on my arm from a tear in my TFCC tendon in my wrist, from this I need to have bones fused together with a screw, a bone graph from my elbow to my wrist and have my ulna bone shortened with a metal plate inserted. All this will leave me with a scar from my elbow to my wrist and in a cast until Jan.2013 followed by months of rehabilitation. I don't want to feel sorry for myself, but I am a musician, I play piano and guitar and teach music so now instead of saying I can not play for the next 6 months, I need to figure out how I can be creative and find a new way to play and become a better musician. I could sit on my couch and stay away from exersize and yoga but instead I will work my lungs with cardio and build my legs with squats and increase my left arm strength doing one arm yoga. I will continue to learn how to write with my left hand and become ambidextrous as I have been practicing since I fell in July slowly but surely I will be at least have left handed writing that could pass for a 10 year old, as right now it is a 5 year old status. Surgery is in 2 weeks....Until then I will enjoy showering and going out in the snow without being wrapped in a bag!!

Every day Be Grateful.
xo
-C!

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Wine Not?!?


Hello you social media savy beauts!

Ok so I feel like everytime I start a blog it starts by....Its been way to long since the last blog haha...but for real it has!

So! I was out the other night chit chatting away...and come up with this new tag line..Wine Not?!...how fitting for a blog.... I have dreams of traveling the world tasting wines from all over and blogging about them...Wine Not?!  lol first stop Calgary....
Labeled Bitch...but Sweet on the Inside
Perceptions a killer people

My Backyard Office

Take a big breath...So most recently I have had the lovely pleasure of falling on my ass in pink suede cowboy boots down stairs and putting my wrist out of commission...it started off as a scaphoid fracture...so I had to wear a neon pink cast.....which then got to loose and had to replace it with a purple barney cast..they took that off ..and then seeing 3 doctors in that day...ending up back at the urgent care getting a half cast so I could get a CT...to then having a neon pink cast put on me again..living with pain killers that put me to sleep..to then getting a brace and starting physio... and seeing ANOTHER doctor who requested an MRI and anthrogram...which by the way is like sooo uncomfterable having a joint frozen....to now stuck in a brace potentially needing surgery OMG take a breath....Im sitting here going to "Dr.Google" researching a Torn Triangular Fibrocartiledge freaking out reading about surgery and having to be casted again haha....... I closed the screens and decided to wait for the specialist before freaking out anymore lol...
I will not let pain Hold me Down!
Especially in Pink!
Me, Barney and my Bro..McGrath's are
Dance PROS..OBVI!



I drink Monster on ice to keep me
FIERCE in a half cast!











Power to the strength of overcoming PAIN in a brace! with my CC sista!


















As you can see I am doing my best but I have to be honest and say Its really quite silly how such a small discomfort in life can effect you in so many ways...having the ability of daily activities being stripped from you gets to be so frustrating...but I watched the movie Soul Surfer with the girl who has her arm bit off by a shark and she is just so passionate and driven to get back onto the surfboard even though she had one less arm and man that was inspiring....passion drives the soul...and witnessing that story reminded me that things can be so much worse! I may not be able to do my new blonde hair real pretty ..practice hot yoga, practice my non existent golf swing...write in my journal..or rock out on the piano or guitar..but I have gotten so much better with my left hand..taken time to write lots of music for a new Crystal McGrath album , become an airport cheaufer amungst friends and family aha and have had moments to come to peace with having silence in my life..something I have neglected for far too long... its the little things we take for granted and should appreciate the most.....so wine not raise your glass or fist or broken arm and cheers to the little things?!!?


My dad passed along a quote to me the other day which I figured we should all live by and it was to EXPECT NOTHING AND ACCEPT EVERYTHING.....wouldn't that make life a lot easier if we all lived by that statement?! try it ;)

New Music COMING SOOOOOON ahhhhh ;) in the mean time check out the latest cover of YELLOW by Coldplay from my band Boy&GurL and Wakeup Starlight! you'll like it as much as your favourite fantasy.. or something like that..and if you don't then I guess thats a few moments of your life you will always remember as not enjoying...either way you'll remember ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-gBYLqD7ODk

Have a lovely evening or day whichever time you are reading this ;)

xox
-C!


I am a Warrior!
NAMASTE!!




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