Moments

I was lying in bed...awake...late...with heartburn...thinking about how this is not one of my favorite moments..painfully awake late at night with thoughts of being up in a short span of hours....but then i switched my thought process to my favorite moments instead....this is what I came up with....

- The moment right before a kiss...

- The smell of the ocean air awakening sences

- Waking up starving to the smell of breakfast...doesnt happen often enuf lol

- Writing a good song

- Hearing a good song while driving with the windows down

- Driving in zero traffic

- Getting an umbrella in my drink

- Laughing with friends and strangers...or myself....

- Night walks on the Oregon Beach with my family as a kid..

- The Blizzard Beach Water park at Disney World

- Watching people cry when I sing....I like to pull out the emotions in people ;) its good for the soul

- Fundraising

- The moment a big event I planned is over

- The moment I start planning a new event

- Creating new memories

- Missing someone.... it reminds me how to feel

- Getting REAL mail!

- Inspiring someone to do something new for themselves

- Learning a new chord

- Teaching someone something new

- Connecting with a person going through the same challanges

- Traveling

- Recording a new song

- Performing in a new city

- Being scared....and getting through it

- New lipgloss...and better yet new mascara....

- Hearing from an old friend

- Smiling at a stranger

- Live Music...Kings of Leon concert life time memory....

- Realizing something is over and that something new is about to happen

- Crawling into a cold hotel downfilled bed...ahhh

- Sleeping.....

On that note, I am going to go shut my eyes and drift off to dream about all these lovely things...

good night all...

xo

-c!

Cover...Creep...Radiohead...Crystal McGrath

Helloooooo....were all creeps and weirdos in our own ways......heres me playing around with creep by radiohead !!

testing 1..2..3..

When you know you shouldn't be doing something, but yet you do it anyways... at the end of the day how does that make you feel? Being Caught in a Moment of feeling like nothing else matters but feeling good...not thinking of consequences or challenges that may arise from your actions is one of lifes mysteries to me. Its like we are constantly being challenged.. and tested....but at the end of the day...what matters? and what is the point of being tested?

If you ask me I have no idea.

Who sets the guidelines as to what is acceptable and what is wrong? is it yourself? are we all just living our lives with what we have each created to be acceptable.. do we set our own rules... and if we do why do people experience guilt over choices they have made? Perhaps it is because if we each have separate morals and ethics when they conflict we are put in a position of second guessing ourselves and doubt.

Testing...1...2...3.... why does it stop there? do we get 3 chances?...3 times a charm? who makes all this stuff up and why do we all go along with it.....the human brain is a strange thing we have so many ideas...but yet i bet only 10 percent of all the populations ideas come into play and become reality. So how do you become a part of that 10 percent...just do it...stop analyzing and thinking and observing...and just LIVE.....live through passion...live through feeling....live through ideas and see what happens....stop saying what if...or well i would IF...or i cant right now...as NIKE says...JUST DO IT. whatever IT may be.

I get side tracked so easily....but when I start something I always want to finish it.....I think thats why my blogs are so completely random lol.

Happy Easter...whatever Easter may mean to u.....this year to me its spending time with the family and friends....a glass of red wine......playing piano and writing music that can make you cry before it is even created....dont ask me how its possible... but it is... watching movies...and sleep......ohh sweeet dreamz....i love sleep ;)

The first line to my newest song....

When i first saw you

i had all the hope in the world.

Until next time..

xox

-C!

Texting VS. Talking

I'm wondering....when did it become more of a priority to text someone then to call them?! Once upon a time it was a letter....then the phone....email....cell phones....now texting.....it seems to be so impersonal yet it is something we have all become accustomed to and to get a phone call from someone now seems to be shocking!!!!!

We can now develop a full on relationship with a person via texting.....you can say things in a text you could never imagine speaking....the world of communication opportunity magnifies when you dont have to look someone in the eyes or hear there response. It can also destroy relationships....misreading a phrase, not being able to fully express what you really mean to say...in a way emotion is kind of stripped from the conversation......its almost like...talk radio? lol

Sexting.....Would you rather a- call someone up and whisper dirty words...or would you rather b- type it out in a short message? Im going to say the majority of society would answer b....for fear of embarasment..or rejection...or convinience...or to be discreet...or for the excitment of the awaited response....I was reading somewhere people debating whether sexting was a social trend or a technological trend....at the end of the article they summed it up that it was a technological trend, and that those types of trends fade quickly as people move on to the next latest fad...trying to convince parents of teens not to worry about their naughty teens haha and that the "trend" should fade soon LOL.......sorry parents of sexting teens.......I dont think the "trend" of sexting is ending anytime soon........

Bizting....haha business texting....has that termed been coined yet?.....Well I say keep business to the words of talking....for there can be so many unnecessary misunderstandings or misreads when it comes to texting that when it comes to business...save it for face to face...or the phone....

thats just my opinion....kinda fits in with the whole dont mix business with pleasure.....but i think thats a whole new blog....stay tuned.....

Things you SHOULD NOT text.....

- the words I LOVE YOU for the first time

- the breakup term ITS OVER

- Apologies

- BIG news to your close friends/family...ie..engagment...prego time...moving countries....ext..

- Question why they are not responding....DONT BE A STALKER....

feel free to add to this list that Im sure could go on FORVER...

Oh another DANGER with texting.......Make sure you are sending the message to the right person! Can you imagine sending your dad a text "I just had the hottest sex with my dads married friend Bob" EEK u cant really take that back.....

and another DANGER.....Dont Text and Drive...today Jarred( Boy....from www.boyandgurl.com) told me that talking on ur phone while driving x2 ur risks of being in an accident...and texting...x4 ur risks of being in an accident...now Im all about taking Risks...But not risks that are proven to kill. so be careful if not for you, at least those around you...but id hope its for u ;)

Haha wow Im sure I could continue on with this random blog as per usual but its late and I meant to go to bed a long time ago.....but when i got to bed i could hear my computer calling my name to open it up and start typing away in the dark.I have a hard time saying No...even to myself...which could possibly explain why I ate an excess amount of realfruit gummies tonight lol.....so this is the conclusion of that.

Before signing off...I will state...that I am a fan of Texting...especially bbm...its holding me back from getting an iphone...lol buttt I love getting a call....just like I love getting a handwritten letter......which seems to happen way to rarely....hint hint....

gOodnight all...and thank you for reading!

xo

-c!

where did a chicken wing come from??

I was out eating wings and drinking strongbow tonight.......and the topic of what the wing was before it was fried came up...and someone brought up that it was a baby chicken.....wing down appitite gone...good thing strongbow is fizzy and filling.....so anyways i get home and google where chicken wings come from...bleh....not a hot topic...and not sure when the next time I will be able to indulge in 20 cent wing night...... heres what I came across

to start it off PG.....

Chicken wings are also called Buffalo wings...as they were originated in Buffalo NY...Oct,30 1964 at the Anchor Bar....this creation of Hot Wings dipped in blue cheese with a side of celery was an instant hit...serving 70 000 pounds of chicken per month wooozaa!!

and im stopping at PG before I find out any further info on the creation of a chicken wing.....being nausous over dead animals is not something im interested in fueling!!

haha on this note.....

Enjoy your next wing night...CHEERS...

xo

-C!

Change to be Free

Waiting to begin.....

On a journey that I have no idea will take place on....

Why do we wait to begin?

When we could begin right NOW....

but Where do we start???

How do we know its right?

why do we have doubt?

When everything we do happens to take us to the next part....

Why do I know that I need to make a change

When I feel so separated from everything I one day thought was right

How does everything change

How do some things stay the same

Why is my mind always changing

I think we should all just stop thinking

then what?

would we all be free?

Free to live as we please

thats what Id like to believe.

ONE

right now i have one follower...erin....who i am talking to on skype right now...she laughs when she reads them....i dont know if she feels sorry for me that shes the only follower...orrr if shes truly laughing at my ridiculousness lol either way i have one follower...and one is better then none......

one love is better then no love

one bruise is better then ten bruises

one child is better then sextuplets i wuld imagine?

one friend is better then being alone

one marriage is better then 3

one dollar is better then zero

one religion would probably solve a lot of the worlds problems

one match is better then 2 stix to start a fire

one day will give me more followers to this random blog of my thoughts

One by U2 is a great song...and when Mary J Blige joins in she knows how to rock it

One singular sensation every little step she takes do da doo doo doo doo doo.....from a classic broadway song ONE

One time erin and I sttarted writing a broadway on the streets of banff...holding one bag of candy from the best candy store ever.....stay tuned maybe ONE day i will share deets of the future Tony Award winning extravaganza....

One day someone might understand me

One day I might understand myself ;)

One shot do not miss ur chance to blow, opportunity comes ONCE in a life time YO.....

one eminem...

One life

One chance to live it

ONE YOU.

ive typed the word ONE so many times that it is starting to look like im spelling it wrong....

I look forward to having ONE more follower

Will you be my one????

signing out.

-c!

random

im sitting here trying to decide on what i should blog about....what do people care about...how can i be a form of entertainment for 2 min of their lives surfing the internet. and ive come up with well nothing...nothing besides the fact that my gel nails are slowly peeling away and look hideous...and that i had a mystery allergic reaction to something yesterday causing my lips to swell double their size i need a bubble....time for a vodka martini...i recomend you pour yourself a drink as well

good night

-c.

Take me or Leave me...a poem.

--Take me or Leave ME--

-C.McGrath!

Tell me what your feeling

so I can stop misleading

thoughts in my mind

can get so decieving

i need my heart

make it stop bleeding

take me

or

leave me

tell me what your hiding

so i can stop this lying

i need to know

should I keep on trying

fix my heart

make it start beating

take me

or

leave

me.

Rejection is the Universe'S Protection

I read somewhere today on someones tweet that Rejection is Gods Protection, and then later tonight my cousin said to me that she heard this great quote today " Rejection is God's Protection" I always find it interesting when 2 people in completly different places in the world hear the same thing and are on typically the same page in life!....My believes lie in the universe, that there has to be a greater energy out there that has created everything we see and feel.

Sometimes when I am in situations that I shouldn't be in but yet let myself be driven my passion or lust instead of thinking with the smart and logical side of my brain, I find a greater force takes over somehow creating an obstacle steering me away from the situation. Its like we all have this greater force fighting our battles for us when we really need it to. Its not something we can depend on to save us, its just something that takes control without us even thinking about, when we least expect it. This could be to save us from future situations...to teach our subconscious a lesson to steer us away from future trouble. Try to be aware of when things like this happen, and try to learn from it for your future.

Another angle...so many of us fear rejection Ill be the first to admit I do...and i think you;d be lying and in extreme denial if you didnt fear it slightly. But they say that there is a reason for everything in this life and if we are denied an opportunity....or relationship...or job......its probably saving us from future trauma. so instead of fearing rejection....go for it...if you dont get it be grateful for a new opportunity to open up around the corner!!!!

xox

-C!

Remembering Teagan Klein

I just heard some unexpected news this evening. Words can't even describe the reality of this tragic situation, but yet situations like this happen so often and you never think it will happen to anyone you know, let alone even imagine it could happen to you. ABUSE.TRAGEDY.DEATH.

Teagan Klein.

Prince of wales 1994 I made a friend, a friend that inspired me to do better, a friend that helped me grow into who I am today. Everyone we encounter in life helps shape our character and some have more of an effect than others to us, her friendship through the years of growing up was one of the friendships that taught me how to be a friend. Although many years have passed since we were close I still can remember being a kid and being Teagan's friend. I remember we were both were competitive gymnasts always making up routines on the front lawn, and making up games on the street with the neighbors. I remember sleepovers and sitting on the kitchen floor picking out all the red flavored gummy dinosours from a big costco box. I remember laughing so hard ..we were kids with abs. I remember her smile, I remember her passion for life, I remember being inspired by her. I remember others being inspired by her.

She moved back to red deer a few years later, and we kept in touch over the years, and would write mail, and visit (and each visit always felt like we saw each other the day before) but we both continued on with our own lives finishing school and let the busyness of life making our contact with each other fade, but yet I feel like if I saw her tomorrow we'd go back to being those 2 girls sitting on the front lawn eating popsicles and laughing.

I don't want to go into details of the horrific news, for I want to just take this time to remember her greatness, but It grieves me to say her life was taken from her and her son, family and friends in the most tragic of ways last year. My sister heard about the trial of the man being charged with first degree murder today and filled me in. It took some time before it actually hit me that it was real and to be reminded that there are horrible things that take place in this world we live in and not just in CSI and Law&Order. The fact that it took so long for me to be aware of this situation adds to the shock of it for me, and my heart deeply goes out to her family and friends I am so sorry to hear this news.

Situations like this unfortunately make us realize that we can't take things in our lives for granted, and that we should never focus on the negative things in life, for at the end of our road its not the negative things that people remember, its the laughter, experiences, love, and smiles that we all remember and it is those things that we should take a moment to focus on everyday. Say what you feel, work hard for your goals, share all your love and laughter, and just live ;) because you never know how you effect the people around you.

Teagan will be dearly missed everyday, I am grateful to have known her and so sorry to hear that she has been a victim of abuse, no one deserves to go through what she has gone through and it happens so often to innocent people when it shouldn't be happening at all.

TAKE A STAND AGAINST VIOLENCE AND HATE.

Hold onto the good things in your life.

they can dissapear quicker

than you can even

imagine.

xox.

-C!

a small list of 10 random things I want to conquer before I die

Random list # 1 of my life tasks.......

1....Join the mile high club.....yesss its classy i know

LOL www.boomboom.com you can apparantly rent this plane to join "the club"

2....Put my footprints on every countries land

3....Hear my music on an asian radio station

(The Future asian DJ)

4.... Bake cotton candy flavored cupcakes

You cant tell me that doesnt look delish!

5.... Effortlessly Fall in Love...

(but that might be when the sky turns pink and the sun is heart shaped...lol)

6.... Publish a book of my random thoughts

7.... Have beachfront property

8.... Create a foundation to support children to follow their passions...money should never be the cause of someone quitting their dreams

9.... Roll around in a bed full of money...preferably after winning it at the craps tables in vegas!

10.... Smile everyday